StephanieUSA, I am praying for you. I am praying for safety for Stephanie, which is built on the truth, May God surround you with wisdom and peace, Amen
I want to ask my dad if he can even see what he does. How when these girls finally find out he’s been lying this whole time, he’s going to crush their life like he did mine when I found out he was cheating on my mom. How many kids life will he ruin? Maybe it’s a good thing I haven’t had any children yet. They didn’t have any bad influences. I have to do whatever it takes to keep my children safe from narcissists. I have to teach them what to look out for and how to protect themselves. My parents didn’t teach me even half the life skills I needed to protect myself in this world. I know how to be intelligent, kind, funny, hard working, all the good things they always expected of me, but they didn’t teach me how to watch out for liars and cheaters and abusers. I honestly thought I could never be caught up in those situations and now I’m unable to find people that don’t use or abuse you. Who would have known all that training left such big gaps for this world. Now I’m having to learn these lessons the hard way and take counseling to heal from the 20 years of damage done by these people. Lord, You are greater than every person who’s purposely hurt me. You know all the damage it’s done to my spirit and heart and soul. I’m not the same person I used to be, so innocent and open. Now I’m always trying to prevent myself from being crushed again. You can’t live in fight or flight survival mode forever. Lord, You have to put people in my path that aren’t out to hurt me. You have to provide better people. Better situations. You have to provide a chance to be healed and to start fresh again. I’m dependent on Your miracles in this. I promise to do Your will and work for Your kingdom if I can create new opportunities and find new good people. I promise to be a good friend and wife, but I refuse to let anyone else abuse me or cheat on me or lie to me. You have to provide the right type of person. Amen
StephanieUSA, I am praying for you