StephanieUSA, I am praying for you
StephanieUSA, I am praying for you
Thank you, Terri. I am amazed by your attitude in your situation. I’m not that mature in my spiritual growth and I hope I can be some day. For me, a bad situation means badness. I haven’t been able to transcend my reality into my peace or joy coming from God/within. I hope one day I can get there, because that is a great coping skill I haven’t figured out yet. I am scared of my future, I’m scared it could get worse than it already is. I’m not hopeful, because it’s gone wrong so many times in so many ways. I’m beaten into the ground. I hope I can learn these lessons. I will try to look for positivity, but I just feel despair and sadness and loneliness and stress. I’ve learned I can’t trust people and I need to be extremely careful who I let close to me. I’ve learned I don’t take care of myself well. I’ve learned I have to stay busy or I get hit with my feelings. I’ve learned I’m not as strong as I hoped I was. I have to look for positives because I can’t see them in this moment. Friday I felt so positive and strong and capable and ready to tackle life and Saturday I felt like I got hit with a ton of bricks. I don’t get it. I’m trying. I’m trying to keep my head above water. So many people rely on me. I have so much to do at work. I pray God will help me. Thank you for your kind words and I pray for you!