Stephanie, I am praying that you ask God what he wants you to learn from this. If I can take so many blessings and lessons from inoperable stage 4 lung cancer, I know there is something He will work for good for you! You are so important to Him (and me)! In my blessings, I count you! Please know that you have so much ahead for your life! If it isn't what you envision, and it rarely is, look for all of the good things... sometimes even the simplest are really the biggest blessings. Don't give anyone power over your feelings and your life but the Lord. You don't have to worry about rejection, abuse or abandonment! You are loved!