BethLauren, I am praying for you and family
BethLauren, I pray that our loving and merciful God brings you the guidance and wisdom necessary to know yourself well enough so that you can live in peace with yourself and others and that your son's mental illness is healed completely and that all of your marriage issues are resolved. In the name of the Creator, this is done. Amen.
BethLauren, I am praying for you daily. I know you are forgiven if you just pray for it and I know God has a plan for you. Can you find a support group, maybe at a church or some group that supports people with mentally ill children. Maybe a christian counselor. You have probably already tried these things. I know God will show you a way.