Sjm92980, I am praying for you. My dear friend when that movie replay simply turn to Jesus, gaze upon Jesus, let his beauty shine upon you, invite the Holy Spirit to come in and gently remove the old and give you a new Spirit and a new heart. Abba Father is forever new. Allow your spirit, mind, emotion and will to be renewed by the Holy Spirit. May you be healed. May Abba Father bless you richly. Amen Amen