StephanieUSA, I am praying for you. May the Lord bless, comfort, and protect you through Jesus. I pray you are able to move forward and make a life and the Lord watch over you. Amen
I couldn’t eat for days after I found out he had a wife. I had to kick him out of my home. Change the plane tickets out of his name to my mom and went on a vacation because I didn’t want to lose the money. Then there were so many other lies I found out along the way. How can a person live that way? How can they be so bad? How did a person with that much mal intent have the ability to fool me for that long? How come it takes me a year or so to heal from these people? Couldn’t I just have figured out he was a piece of crap and let it go immediately? Why does my heart and brain not allow me to do that? Why am I the one still alone and sad? He paid no penalty for his actions. I’ve paid them all. Why couldn’t God have given me someone to help me through all this pain? Couldn’t He have sent a person to sit with me and support me? Couldn’t He have provided the right man to prove everything I experienced as not always the case? Why is His will for me to always be alone? I’m an only child. I don’t have any close friends. I don’t have any close family besides my mom. Why is this my reality? I just don’t understand. I’m not a bad person and I haven’t done anything to deserve all this, so it doesn’t feel right. My dad cheated too and I told God, just please don’t make me live through that again, because what my dad did still hurts and sure enough, I had to live it, even seeing the video of it occurring. Why?!?! Why? It doesn’t make any sense? Why is this my reality? How will You bring this life back to something good? I feel like in one instant You could fix everything. One husband who has a large family that is willing to take me In and love me and all my misery is over… why won’t You? Why?