Dear Cassie25, It's difficult for all of us to turn away from our sins or wicked ways completely using our own will power. We surely need Lord Jesus to become our Lord and Savior. He can divinely help us and to become a new creation in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17). If you haven't been saved, Cassie, I encourage you to surrender your heart to Jesus. Confess your sins to him and ask for forgiveness. Through Jesus's blood, your faith in him and in the gospel, and God's and Jesus's grace, you can be saved or born again. Once you're saved, the Holy Spirit can help you to repent and gradually go through a transformation process. If you have questions about being born again, talk to your pastor. I gave you a brief overview. Or for now, you can visit the gotquestions.org website and look up "What does it mean to be a born again Christian?" Here's the link - www.gotquestions.org/born-again.html I hope this helps. May all go well for you. In Jesus's name, I pray.