tedfuller, I am praying for you. You are a child of God, you are worthy of His love, just as Jesus has told us all. Restart with baby steps, get in good church with traditional values, you will be uncomfortable at first, just as I was. Church is for those who need it, not just those who "get it." Give some of your time to a food pantry to see how valuable you are, there are never enough hands. You will receive blessings you never expect. Take baby steps. You are blessed and you are loved, accept His love.
tedfuller, I am praying for you and if you can offer prayers, you are needed here! You are not a failure and God says that you are worthy!! Trust in the Lord's opinion, not people!! You are loved and I am going to pray for you all day!!
tedfuller, I have felt this way many times in my life but dont so much any more. Prauer reading and believing Gods word helped me. Also, I found volunteering and helping others helped. Serving food at a kitchen for the needy visiting some one who did not get visits at a nusing home, cutting grass for an elderly neighbor, helping at a ronald mc donald house, volunteering at a hospital are a few where you may help..I ask the Lord to help you. I believe when we give of our self it gives much to us, when we give the best from with in us. The BEST care and effort. It helps up. Try some of these things.. I bet it helps