BethLauren, please know that God forgives you completely and that He wants you to forgive yourself for any mistakes you've made. I pray that your son receives the care he needs for his mental illness so that it removes the burden from you because healing his illness is probably not something you can do. I pray you find the help he needs so that you can live in peace and joy. n the name of the Creator, this is done. Amen.
BethLauren, I am praying for you