I think I may know how you feel, Stephanie. I am going through a very hard time right now too. I can tell you what will help because it has helped me. 1) You need to fill yourself with God's word. There are playlists on Youtube focused around topics like anxiety and depression, or how to stay positive. There are also collections of Scripture like this online. I spend an hour reading the Bible every morning. I also have a timer on my phone that goes off every hour to remind me to read another Bible verse of this nature. It is like a quick pick-me-up. It helps if you have a pick-me-up like this ever 1-2 hours. I don't know what your schedule is like, so I don't know if you could structure your day like this, but do you think this is something you could do? You also need to bring up a Christian music station on Pandora. Maybe for a while, this needs to be all that you listen to. Praise and worship invites the presence of God. "God inhabits the praises of His people." Psalm 22:3. This is the first thing you need to do. This is the second thing you need to do. 2) Start praying for or ministering to other people. The more you give of yourself, the more God will pour back into you. The Christian body is connected; we're all interconnected to each other, so this is how it's supposed to work. If you take care of somebody else, then you are probably building up a spiritual checking account in Heaven for what you really need.
StephanieUSA, I am praying for you