BethLauren, when you say mental illness, what do you mean? That can take many forms. Does your son have something like schizophrenia or bipolar disorder? Or does he have something like anxiety or depression? I don't know which it is.
BethLauren, I am praying for you
BethLauren, I am praying that you will find the help you need either in counseling or with medication so that you can be calm and have peace and joy. I pray the Lord will make you well so that you will be better able to deal with the situation at hand. I pray that he will make your mind clear so that you can make logical decisions about your life ahead. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.