AY, I am praying for you
I'm praying that your faith will be restored. God did not heal Paul and he did not heal Timothy. He may not heal you but it does not mean that his love is lacking or he does not have your best life in his mind. He does promise to never leave you or forsake you. He promises that he will finish his work in you until the day of Jesus Christ. May you find joy in your suffering and a stronger more sure relationship with him because of it. Regardless of how you feel Jesus still gave his life for you and died for you. God did not spare his only son but let him suffer and die for us. Many of the Apostles suffered and died for the sake of Jesus. May you find the grace to rejoice in your suffering and to be a testimony of the goodness of God regardless of being ill. In the name of Jesus, Amen.
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him