StephanieUSA, I am praying with and for you, for I too can relate to all that you are enduring! I will continue to pray for God's grace and blessings over you to bring balance and meaningful connections with good and kind people with the intention of a loving and committed partner coming in to your life! Jesus we trust in You to intervene in StephanieUSA's life!
StephanieUSA, I am praying for you
Why did you make me smart and funny and nice and genuine and loving and caring and helpful and talented and hardworking if the only people who can benefit from me are my students? Why can’t I be a friend or wife or mother? Why when I was created was I not meant to live a normal life? Why when You thought me up You put in my heart from kindergarten to want a partner and here I am at 36 still alone? Why did You make me an only child? Why did You make my family abandon me after my dad cheated? Why did all my friends have to stab me in the back? Why did all my relationships either just not work out or be horrible? Why have I had to suffer for this many years? I haven’t had a reprieve. I’m exhausted and alone and basically think my entire life has to be reset to change this. Somehow not one thing is working in my favor that really matters to me. A job is a job. I love what I do, it’s fun to succeed, but it doesn’t fill all the holes in my heart. My job uses up so much of my time and life that it is easy to resent it. 60-80 hours a week is overbearing. It’s out of proportion and prevents balance. It made me really easy to cheat on. It has prevented me from joining most situations where you can actually meet/create friendships. I’m always tired on top of my thyroid problems that exaggerate the tiredness. I feel like my life is in shambles. I feel like nothing has worked out like I wanted it to or even how it does in almost everyone else’s life. I feel weird like I don’t fit in. Most people who know me make comments like they feel bad for me cause they don’t know why I have such bad luck with life. I don’t either. I don’t get it. Why was this my fate? How can I change my entire life? I feel like everything I’ve tried always failed. Why do I think I can do an overhaul now and all of a sudden things will change? They never have. I feel like I’m trapped. Please don’t make me stuck any more. Set me free to live up to my potential. Guide me into what I deserve. Create situations that are good and close off any bad situations. I can’t do this alone. I need supernatural help. God, please, show Yourself in my life. I need a miracle. You’ve seen and heard me suffering all these years and begging You for help, please, please come into my life. I can’t stand this type of life any more. I’ve been doing it for almost 20 years now. I’ve been trying my best. But it hurts too much. I can’t be stabbed by any more people or forgotten or made a fool of. I just need real people to come around me. I need support. I need to be really loved, not lied to. I need to be helped, not abused. I need to be appreciated, not taken advantage of. I need Your protection and guidance. Please don’t teach me any more lessons through pain, I can’t do any more. I’m already crushed beyond recognition. Let me put back together my pieces in peace and become whole again without needing to be in survival mode.